"Not again!" I threw a thermometer away and pulled my blanket over my head. A hail of of abuse to myself woke up my partner in dismay.
We don't have kids. I have been checking my basal body temperature for a year. But no good news has come. My getting degrees, diseases, our changing jobs, moving, other family matters cut in our life. Of course, nobody lives a perfect and comfortable life without any worries. However, we are not young now, helplessness is becoming bigger and bigger.
He soothed me and said that we had to open a door. I got to know what he meant : it's time to visit a gynecologist . I hesitated. My biggest worry is that medical checks will expose who's "guily" in sterility. I'm very afraid that the result may change the state of our relationship. You may think that I 'm too pessimistic, however, in fact, some of my friends lost their partners.
We went to a clinic. While filling a counseling sheet with my partner, I got calm little by little. We had an appointment of the first examination and came home. I was able to breathe again.
Anyway, the first door was opened.
